Show Your Feeling

When u feel happy or sad or something, do u show ur feeling to ur friends? To everybody around u?
When u feel happy, do u laugh with ur friend? When u feel sad, do u come to ur friend and cry?
Is it necessary to show ur feeling? Are ur friends will care bout ur feeling?

I hardly ever show my feeling to everyone. Is it wrong? I think, who cares with what I feel?
Sometimes I can hide it from everybody. When I feel sad, I can laugh with them. I try not to show what I feel. Is it important to u to know what I feel? No, right?

When I feel uncertain, I just try to find something to make me feel better, to make me forget that feeling. Sometimes I play with friends, hang out with the others, or something. But I must do it with others. If I just stay at my room, the uncertain always come to me. Then I try to go out of my room. Maybe, play in my friend’s room, or online, or call someone.

But, how if nothing u can do to forget the feeling? When u feel uncertain, u r alone in ur home. No friend to call. No friend to go with? So, u can’t forget it. I stay in my room, all day long. I do nothing. Yesterday, the day before, 2 days ago, . . . . I can play in my friend’s room, I can go home and meet my fam so I am not alone, I can call someone, I can SMS someone, I can chat with someone, . . . So I keep my feeling, I don’t care bout it, I can forget it for a while. But yesterday, my house mate hadn’t come. After the ceremony ended, my friends went home. I asked friends from other school but they had competitions at school, I call the other but no one replied me.

I don’t know what happen with everyone yesterday. I feel lonely. Alone. With the uncertain. What shoul I do? I just waste time. Do nothing. Im dying. When I was at 2nd grade of SHS I would not go to school that day. But, I know, I cant do this now. I must try to forget the uncertain.

Do u know what I feel when no one here with me? I tell u this time,only once.
It HurtS . . .
Thanks for ignoring me =)